Wednesday, October 23, 2013

Eager to tell our parents the good news



We were beyond thrilled to tell our parents but we wanted to wait till we went home for Thanksgiving. We thought of cute ways to spill the beans. We bought our favorite children's books and wrote inside as if from the baby- please read to me July 2013, love your grand baby. I was definitely feeling pregnant and I had terrible morning sickness and fatigue. I wanted to tell everyone so they'd understand why I was acting the way I was. 
My parents came to pick us up from the airport and it was so hard to keep it from them I was just bursting with excitement! I decided it would be fun to take my parents to Rubys Diner a restaurant with sentimental value. I called the restaurant ahead and told them that I wanted to order a shake with pickles and explained my whole weird way of telling my parents that we were pregnant. We sat down and they delivered the shake to me. I just about threw up looking at it let alone almost drinking it. My mom looked at me and said, "what is that some sort of pregnancy shake?" Meanwhile my daddy is clueless and is ordering his hamburger. My mom is beside herself about to jump up and down squealing with excitement! My dad finally catches on and we then gave them the children's book. Oh my gosh that was so fun!!! We were so happy and we couldn't wait to see Kyle's parents reaction.
That night we went over to the Evans and it was perfect because it was just them and we sat on the couch and asked them to open the gift. They were very confused when they opened the book Go Dog Go. Kyle filmed the whole thing of his mom getting all emotional as she realizes that this morse has come true. It was so hard keeping it from our siblings. Keith and Andrea noticed something was up with me and even guessed that I might've be pregnant. My older sister Anne thought I was depressed because of infertility and my mom and I would laugh because that couldn't have been any further from the truth. They both just saw my fatigue that hit me like a ton of bricks. With Anne she would ask me to do things and I was too tired to get off the couch. 
The trip was wonderful and the day after Thanksgiving we left for Maui with Kyle's parents. Maui was so gorgeous but I was too sick to do anything! I threw up morning, noon, and night! I even thought wow I'm so sick I wonder if I'm having twins. Debi and I talked about it because it was always a possibility seeing as though I drop 2-3 eggs when I ovulate sorry if that's TMI. Anyway I would stop thinking about twins because I didn't want to get my hopes up. 
Flying home from Maui was awful! I threw up the entire flight and bled a lot! I remember praying the whole way home for the baby. We were terrified that it might've been a miscarriage. I bled for 2 days and the second we landed in Richmond we went to the doctor. 

The answer to our prayers



As we contined to pray, read, fast, and attend the temple and we saw the blessings pour down from Heaven!!! 
Exactly one month went by and I threw out my back so we went to Patient First. The doctor came in and checked me out and said that she wanted to run some x-rays I told her that was fine because I'm not pregnant. She insisted that they do a pregnancy test just to make sure. Thirty minutes went by and she said that they weren't going to do any x-rays because I was in fact pregnant. WHAT?!? I am what?!? I yelled this over and over again. We made the doctor tell us again and again and show us the proof. Can this be real? Why not I was promised this in a blessing. There are still miracles today just like in biblical days. God loves us all the same. We hugged each other and cried with joy. That night we went home and prayed in gratitude that The Lord had heard our prayers and had in fact answered them! That night I remember planning for our future with Kyle. Is it a boy a girl or possibly twins?!? 

The steps of faith that let us to two amazing miracles


Honestly I have no idea where to start because its been so long since I've blogged! What I do know is I have a great desire because I want to capture and record the moments with my little angels, Ashlyn and Kensley and my amazing husband. 
I remember I stopped blogging because I felt like nothing was exciting and fun in my life anymore and I was frustrated because my life wasn't going as planned and who wants to read about that. I had this huge void which was the fact that we didn't have children. We both had wanted something so badly and it was difficult because it was out of our control. We tried EVERYTHING!!! You name it we tried it, seeing 6 different doctors and traveled all over the nation to meet with specialists.  We met with councilors and adoption agencies. Even though it was the hardest trial that Kyle and I have ever experienced it was all worth I because we grew closer to one another and to the Lord. 
We moved from Irvine California to Richmond Virginia November of 2011 and even though its very different we love it! We started meeting with several different doctors and specialists once we moved here and once we heard the words "I'm sorry, but you'll never be able to have kids." From more than one doctor we lost hope and felt like our world was shattered into millions of pieces and I didn't know how to pick up the pieces. In order to start I knew I needed more faith. Kyle and I both served missions for our church and we taught people every day to put their trust in The Lord, why weren't we taking advice that we gave to others? We prayed for an extra measure of faith to go on. Faith to find the answer to our trial. faith to have the hope to have kids regardless of what others said. Faith in miracles and most importantly faith in our Savior, Jesus Christ.  
We started praying and reading the scriptures more earnestly. We went to the temple as often as we could. Seeing the blessings from these steps of faith was tremendous! When I went to the temple I had very special spiritual experiences all of which gave me the promise that I would be able to be pregnant and have a family. 
My older brother Keith is a spiritual giant and he was sitting in the Temple thinking about us and our situation. He felt impressed to give Kyle a blessing of healing as well as myself. Well Keith lived in California at the time and we're in Virgina. Keith received the prompting more than once and The Lord provided the way. Kyle had a business trip in Chicago and Keith happened to have one as well and we actually flew into Chicago the same day. We all knew this was divine intervention and we met up and Keith gave us the most piwerful blessings that we've ever experienced. I remember seeing the room get brighter! I Remember feeling all the weight be completely lifted off my shoulders. Most of all for both our blessings I remember receiving the confirmation that we will have children and its going to be soon! Tears streamed down my face in gratitude for a loving Father in Heaven that has given us the precious gift of the Priesthood and the healing power that it has.

Fast Forward to General Conference of October 2011 hearing President Eyring's talk Where Is the Pavilion? This talk was exactly what I needed! I prayed for a divine errand. At that moment I knelt down prayed to God and submitted my will to Him. http://www.lds.org/general-conference/2012/10/where-is-the-pavilion?lang=eng